It's Not About Sadness...

Salam...Well,it's July now..Time flies so fast...How I wish I can just stop or pause the time...Yes,sudah 1 month plus hidup berdikari di perantauan and it's not easy okay...It takes time for me to get myself used to it...Alhamdulillah,everything is kinda okay now...I'm getting fatter now because I keep on eating non-stop...The reason I'm writing this is to express my feelings right now...Frankly,now I'm not sad anymore to be away from my family...But,I'm scared about my studies...I'm crying because I afraid that I might not do well in my studies..If I did not do well,I'll be disappointing my family...I'm not the type of person that will study hard,I play hard...I'm scared that I will be repeating the same mistakes that I did during PMR and SPM...I don't want that to happen again...But at the same time I don't even bother to do something about it...Now,I just hope that I can study hard or study smart la kot better in order to make sure that I'll be scoring 3.00 and above...Life in university is very challenging...I have to start from now...So,that's all for today...Adios...