What's up yo ???
Well, it's that time of the year again...
What is it?
The end of the year and the beginning of new year..
Ok , enough with the crap 😝
Hi, Welcome to my new post (waaa budget macam famous pulak daaaah)
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| Photoshoot with Majalah Nano (tak da kaitan dengan Nona) |
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| Ada paparazi 😝😝 |
Well, somehow the desire to write suddenly appear, and it seems that I do have plenty of time, so here I am 😎
Technically, this post is about things that happened in 2017. I've decided to spit it out here, nanti boleh la baca balik kan... In case any of you have no idea about it, then yeah you will finally know about it. In case dah tau, tau tau ja la ya... 👻
So, where do I begin eh? 😏
Ok let's start with the final chapter of my degree journey... January 2017, the month where I completed my 6th semester. One more semester left (practical & FYP)
"Eh pasaipa yang lain 6 semester, hang sampai 7 pulak?"
Soalan macam ni, mahupun yang seangkatan, banyak ja... I purposely make it 7, cos I wanna reduce the load (kalau tak tau apa-apa, diam ja, jangan banyak tanya, yang nak kena hadap semua tu aku, aku punya suka laa) Thanks to my seniors yang share pasal ni, kalau tak , jenuh la jugak. So I decided, why not to take it slow and steady liddat. I love taking my own sweet time, I don't like to be rushed. So, tak kisah la aku grad lambat ka apa, cos it's my decision. At first, my parents memang tak agree pon.My dad especially, he's kinda angry with my decision at that time, but I managed to convince him dengan gunakan point "TAK MAU PISANG BERBUAH DUA KALI" Haaaa, YMTT
Ok , moving on. So January was the month where I sat for my FINAL final exams (yeayyyyy no more exammmm) That's the best part... Haaa, yang tak best tu, when I was informed about who's going to be my advisor for my Final Year Project a.k.a. Thesis a.k.a. FYP or anything You wanna call it, You may ;-) It's not that I'm making a hasty generalisation or what, tapi memang kenal sangat perangai advisor tu. Ada niat nak discuss dengan coordinator to change advisor at that time, tapi tu la, niat ja la...
First week of February, first consultation with him started. Before I went to see him, memang cuak nak mampus. I was not 100% prepared, I will never be 100% prepared pon anyway.. I prepared some info la to be used in case dia nak tanya, and I also had with me 6 potential topics for my thesis... Hmmm, 6 kot. Macam banyak kan, YEAYYYYYY semua kena reject 😞. And I was being so polite at that time, so I asked him "So, Prof rasa apa tajuk yang sesuai untuk saya ya?" and dia pon bagi la kat aku Foreign Exchage.... Bravo Bravo, aku paling "suka" topic ni... I accepted it with a smile on my face at that time. Why I can still smile? hehe, Bro kan ada ;-)
Long story cut short, after my third or fourth consultation macam tu, I decided to give up.. Yup, cos I couldn't take it anymore. Every single thing that I presented to him, that are all based on what I've discussed with him, he keeps on rejecting it... Not only that, my proposal was described as "mabuk", ''fakta kedai kopi'' la, bla bla bla 😠 It's not about I'm being "lembik" or what, I had a feeling that he's trying to attack me for no reason.. Semua tak kena, padahal ikut tunjuk ajar dia jugak.. Bengang gila kot...
So, I told my parents "I'm going to fail my thesis, I'll redo my thesis next semester, so for now I am just going to complete my practical first, ok?" Memang kenaaa la , Mum bagi satu statement ja ;
"yang lain semua dok habih belajaq dah, hang tak habih habih lagi.. tak tau la"
Baca macam biasa ja kan, She said it with the tone of disappointment, rasa down gila time tu... My Bro was on my side.. He told me to just carry on with my decision but he was super worried at that time. He keeps on asking me is it possible for me to do it etc etc. Well, I did request to change my advisor, but naah I was not entertained.
After two months macam tu, somehow I feel like I should just get it done. I picked up from where I left, asked Bro to add up mana yang patut. I contacted my advisor, made an appointment with him, pretended like nothing had happened, went to see him with my proposal (orang lain time tu dah start hantar draft dah, aku bawak proposal ok) and Alhamdulillah, he finally accepted my proposal. Then I can proceed with the next chapters. At that time, it was just a few weeks left before viva. I really push myself, kinda impressed with myself 😎. Then one last consultation before viva, he said all ok, I can proceed with slides apa semua.
Again, Fatin will never be prepared cos she will ended up hentam ja (sometimes menjadi, sometimes tak). I did mention kan that this topic was suggested by my advisor and topic yang I have no interest on pon, so memang tak confident langsung, tapi hidup perlu diteruskan juga. Hari kejadian, nervous tak terkata la, I did prepare my script, tapi script sekadar script ja... I pretend to be confident and pretend to know my topic deeply la kononnya cos student yang present before my turn, dia kena hentam teruk dengan Madam Nabila (second advisor) cos she was reading from the slides and can't really answer the questions asked by the lecturers. Nampak tak pressure tu macam mana. So yeah, I did what I have to do , they seem to be so called satisfied but I was asked to get my data changed and that was actually a lot of work ok cos I need to submit the final product in 3 days after the viva. No no, I tak give up la, I push myself again yaaa. Alhamdulillah, managed to change apa yang patut.
So inilah hasilnya. After all the struggles , finally. I officially completed my degree in August (lepas dapat result la officially complete) One thing for sure, I could have never done this without all my loved ones and my lecturers of course (yang tertentu sahaja, bukan semua) . Their prayers and support mean the world to me. Without them, I am nothing. I was so happy on the day when the result was out. It's the most valuable gift that I can offer to my family. Yeah, I know ramai lagi yang strruggle kat luar sana, ada yang lebih teruk, but this is my story. My own experience that I've chose to share.
Haaa, next stage? Bila nak kerja? JENG JENG JENG JENG 😓
The first person to ask me this question was my DAD. Yup, cos he said that once I have started working, he can stop giving me money dah 😟. Hmmm seriously dad? I told him I wanted to take a break (penat buat thesis tak habih lagi, dah suruh cari kerja) Therefore, I pon berkunjung ke Jobstreet demi mencari pekerjaan. Apply ja la mana2 yang suitable / suit their requirements. I did apply thru Maukerja website too. Kat situ la where I got for my first job 😎 hehehe I worked at Starbucks Straits Quay, for a while , after that, I received a call from Citigroup, went for the interview and Alhamdulillah, I was informed that I'm hired on the same day jugak. Rezeki... Berkat doa parents... I am thankful... I really am...
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| Time nak pi kerja ;-) |
Punca??? Me of course. It's such a silly action, I was not thinking, I was so emotional.
Gosh, I really don't wanna be in that situation anymore... Please...Even until today, I am still unable to completely forgive myself...
Ya la, macam laut kan, kadang tenang, kadang bergelora... Hmmm sat, tapi ni aku yang bagi bergelora... Apa- apa ja la, tapi yang ni la benda yang aku paling pening kepala and I almost thought that it's the end..
I was so miserable at that time, meroyan tak habih2, most of the time I locked myself in my room, time makan ja keluaq but sempat jugak la buat video, sebab lagu tu macam kena pulak dengan kisah hidup 😳.... But Allah is great...He showed us the way back...I was so happy... super duper happy... At that time, I told myself that I really need to fix myself... I don't want the same thing to happen again in the future...
SO yeah, that's my 2017.......
2018, WHAT WILL YOU BE "SERVING" ME EH?
