HURT

It seems that I will never learn from all the lessons... You see, there are times when we tend to hurt people that we love the most for so many times and yet they still forgive You. You tend to take their forgiveness for granted.

But trust me, it's not that it's taken for granted, but things happen without You realising and it is some sort of protecting yourself from being hurt but ended up You are hurting the other party and yourself too. Hmm,kinda confusing right? Well that's what I felt.

I always tell myself that I will never ever gonna hurt her. But somehow, I did it. For so many times. I have to say that even though I am at this age, I am still unable to think wisely and I am so damn childish. And not to forget, super duper sensitive too. I am not sure whether being sensitive is something that can be avoided or not, but that is such a bloody weakness.

The hardest part is to explain what I felt and why did I actually do/say that. It's very hard for me because there are times when I am unable to find the right word to describe them and there are times when I really don't wanna talk about it I guess 🙅

Hmmm, well the quote above, I couldn't agree more. But it makes me (only me ok) feel so shitty jugak la. It's like as if You have an authority to hurt others if that person thinks it is worth it. Eh, wait .. Never mind...

But the point is, to be hurt by someone, it's painful. And to hurt others is also painful (if it is not, then You're such a heartless person of course or You've been hurt for so many times dah). I am not trying to defend myself or trying to say that it is okay to hurt others when You yourself couldn't find the reason why You actually did that at the first place.

Yup, I am hurting too. How I wish I can actually turn back the time and only if I could make it undone, I swear, I would have done that. But yes, things happen. I am now left with regret, with the thought of "If only I didn't say that.."

Now, the questions is, can You actually avoid yourself from hurting others or not?